OMG I love this rain!

this is great! i am telling you i couldnt be happier, i want to snuggle up, drink hot toddies and listen and watch it fall. i think i may have a love affair with the rain. i used to love them when i was a kid, at school, eating lunch inside for a fun game of "heads up 7-up" loved it! being from so cal...these days were few and far between yet cherished...i have always been a new yorker at heart and especially when it comes to the weather... i love to dress and be fashionable in winter... all the fun coats, boots, scarves, hats... yey!!! i have my windows down and my heat on, when driving and i switch to hot coffee...i usually only do iced... so stop your bitching... its not like it lasts forever, or even a day here in sunnyville... cozy up and soak it in.

11:11

make a wish... 

i can't sleep

i haven't been getting great nights sleep lately, but tonight (or last night) was even worse....

i love the rain... i mean i LOVE the rain... i find myself mesmerized by the sounds and the feel, the breeze, the smell... it all!
so i found myself laying, listening to the simple sound of rain. in my mind full of noise the simple rhythm of the rain was a soothing escape for my serious and complicated thoughts. so i curled up with my pups and meditated to the rare pitter-patter.
...then i thought i might seize the day, while no one is out i can go enjoy it, alone. i then got a big coffee and proceeded to begin a new week. i have many promises to myself i am attempting to keep and the rain, as well as mondays, provide a fresh start for my ever strained will.

i urge you to not hate the wet weather, embrace it!! make a fresh start...

"creature fear"

a song by my new favorite artist "bon iver" ... though a beautiful haunting song... the true haunt is the fear of becoming...a... creature fear... as we grow our will becomes diminished and we become creatures of fear, and of comfort. the most frightening thing to me is complacency...in being less than i am, i can be, i deserve, i can learn. this relentless will from in me to be more and better has flickered through the years... the fear has stacked and created a resistance against my will and then i feel another song from him explains the heavy load of fear that compiles from the twists of our life's, "re:stacks"... truly i could some days hole myself in and begotten by fear, but the thriving will inside me luckily will not give up... yet, at least... go... listen to this amazing journey of an album... beautiful.

carrying on...

well when it rains... it pours... and i am thankful for the recent downpour upon me. i had a lot of fun today shooting in malibu with fitness guru rob sims and the two days before downtown with the incomparable james jagger...soon to be released on my new favorite website jackcypress.com ...this is porn for women... vogue fashion spreads with hot, sexual girls...yum!

i also got to have a sneak peek at the ever awaited release of co-ed confidential season 3...it rocks... i hope you all have cinemax to catch the season...it should be airing in February.

i am excited to tell you all that in my one year doing any adult work i have earned TWO avn nominations... best g/g and best g/g/g... i'm telling you...you boys need to watch more lesbian porn to REALLY know what you are to do down there...cross your fingers for me!

promises unkept

i must apologize for my lack of attention to my blog... i am a bad girl... i hope i don't get coal this year... i have so much to say and i should and am going to use this as my outlet... so don't be scared by my rants and raves... and always keep reading... i'm going somewhere with this... trust me. so i am committing to you...to myself...i promise to blog every morning. period. i am turning over many new leafs and this commitment may keep me sane... like i said don't be too scared of what you read...just keep reading and i will keep writing. thank you for your patience and loyalty.

The day after...

It kinda feels like the day after Christmas, the year you got everything you wanted, the year when you got the biggest gift, the one you begged your mother for every time you saw the commercial or saw it on the street... this day feels like that thing America has wanted for years is finally being delivered to us... and we want the whole next week to just revel and play with our new prize. But you Mr. Newtoy have to now live up to all those enticing commercials that we all watched in awe and with hope... then turning to our moms with that desperate look in our eye... begging "i want that"... well, we got it... now the batteries will be loaded on January 20th and the dolly must talk, the plane must fly, and you cant break. We are all hoping that the day we take you for granted and put you on the shelf is along way away... You Mr. President Elect Sir, have to make our dreams possible, we are so pleased to have received you, you are all we have wanted and waited for... and now sir you must not have false advertised to us or we will take you back. I have the spirit. I have the hope.

the fall

i am told the world is going to end in 2012... has anyone else heard this? i find it very definite.. and with this certain death we all may face it changes my out look on the time i have left.. we have so many options... so many ways to spend our last days... should i get fat and eat cake... or do i start my career as a triathlon... i am so confused... do i continue with the life i am leading or do i go into debt and travel the world... do i give up on saving the planet, if i know its going to fade into oblivion... do i bother to learn anymore, or meet anyone, or even really care about anything... or do i just carry on with the now obviously meaningless life that i am leading... i think i will just cuddle up with my dogs and bake cookies ... i guess i don't really plan to change much when faced with the end of the world...

CHOICE. Liberate your voice.

I am working hard on this new issue, my swimwear line, the fashion show and I got a great role in a series for HBO.... I am so excited and I am finally juggling some really great things! I hope I am successful with all of my endevors... I look forward to sharing my progress with you as these things develop. The time is now I feel and I hope to have your support! Change is in the air.. both immediately and globally. I have one thing to say on this debate day... register to vote NOW! Just do it... we have the chance to change this world people! This can be the histortic event that changes the future of the world. I hope you feel how I do and that our dreams will only come true with a new voice, the voice of our generation and liberated minds .

brittany lives...

i guess she still lives and that's great i guess but why do we really still care what the hell she does... the time has passed people... and so should we... lets not judge this new emergence of brittany and cause her to lose it again... because really she made her money and she needs to now be a mother... not risk these kids again for another day in the spotlight... the new info her mother released...about her beloved "false" virginity... brittany was not a virgin when she was thought and promoted to be... she actually lost her virginity at 14... this is printed in her mothers new tell all book... not that i care about that either but that's my point i just really don't care about the things she does or the stupid awards she wins... these songs suck... and even her mother should lay off... stop trying to make a buck off her name... let her go live a quiet life... please, do it for the kids that are already so fucked up...i don't know maybe its just me... maybe you are still in love with the train wreck...

new issue

so excited for my new issue... but i am quite outspoken this issue so i hope not to frighten you all... the time you spend reading it will be informative, i promise... but i don't promise that an eye brow will not be raised. Botox people!!! i should give this issue an "R" rating... maybe you will have to rate it for me... after reading" Political Continence" and " Dear Mia..." in CULTURE... yikes!!! i do have to tell you this is my third edit of that article.... "tone it down" i was told... whatever... i am sure you will enjoy the articles and tips throughout and i hope you get a chance to checkout the fun layouts this month too... already laying out next month and i know it will be just as fun... good readings... ~mia

the big shoot!

tomorrow is the shoot for my swimwear line and i am soooo excited! i have 10 hot babes coming to model my swimwear... don't you wish you could be there! i am certain it will be a great time... you can anticipate the results on www.luxurykittenxxx.com ... and thanks to your dedication i have racked up over 30,000 hits in three weeks... i am so thankful to you all for your support... i am in the middle of putting together the September issue now and am sure you will enjoy the content... i may have even more to report soon, as we have many things cooking in the oven... the most recent is next Tuesday please tune into playboy radio on Sirius for the "Rockstar/Pornstar" show with Evan Seinfeld and Tera Patrick... i am on and i would love for you to listen.... i will have all the details on my blog the day before... so stay tuned!!!

The weekender

I had an exciting weekend between the Presidential Forum and the new Iron Chef... I was a happy clam! I LOVE my TV... I thoroughly enjoy my time relaxing in front of the boob-tube. It allows me to conversate with an inanimate object while informing myself, staying current, escaping, laughing and crying. I also enjoy the quick time of Television. And though many fall victim to the lazy moments, I thrive in the pace of television and continue to relentlessly pursue my ambitions, while still being able to enjoy my lazy times. Now I am sure you wanted to hear about the Playboy party or my photo shoots, that may be exciting to you, but curling up with my pups for a new Iron Chef is what I was rushing off set for. But I was so tired from my "non" TV life that I fell asleep before the winner was announced, so I am SO excited for the repeat!!!! Check your local listings! hehehehe... if it wasn't for this Food Network distraction, my relentless ambition just might eat me up... yum,yum!

Dog Days...

Sometimes, I wish I were MY dog... he has no cares, he awakes with a goofy smile and a silly disposition, he never worries, he only really needs food and love and he deals in kisses not dollars... he has a carefree existence and I AM JEALOUS!!! His name is Walter but everyone calls him; Buddy... because he is every one's buddy and everybody needs a buddy... he even comes with tag lines... we got him when he was 5 months and dumped off at a local Vet... he had never been washed, or brushed, or loved, he wouldn't even walk... and did I mention that little Buddy has a bit of a weight problem... he was even fatter then.... and he peed all over... he was a bit of a mess and with another crazy dog at home, what were we thinking... A PUPPY??? Well, we took him home, gave him a bath, cut off his hair, taught him where to pee pee... showed him how to love and put him on a diet... now he is the happiest BUDDY you will ever see, The only time "Wiggles" (that's another name for him) gets a pout is when his Papa is having dinner or his Mama is cooking and no scraps fall... then he looks like nobodies child... he is a glutton... somethings never change.

time is wastin'

it's 7:45 am and I feel like my day is passing me by already... if I could I would be up at 6am sleep from 11am-3pm and be back up from 3pm-2am... I prefer these hours... I just wish everyone else was as willing to seiesta for that long in the day... I love the mornings, I hate the middle of the day and I love late night... the time restraints we are all on are not as cohesive as our bodies would like... I was awoke by a call from my agent... I didn't even know he got up this early... maybe he was up from last night... to be on set this morning by 8:30am... so off I go now... not knowing really what to expect except that I will most likely not have my seiesta today...

popping my BLOG cherry...

Hello there my new BLOG family... I am so excited to finally have a dream come true, I have always wanted a magazine (originally I wanted a "paper" magazine but the words "real" and "tangible" have evolved into meaning "virtual"), one that I wrote, styled, directed, edited and produced with my ideas and my vision. I have always had a need to put my passions and interests into an intelligently designed organization of expression. With the help of my relentless work ethic and unsatisfied ambition, pared with my intensely creative mind and natural style, I have been able to make this static vision of mine, "tangible". I may have dreamed it but there is true credit due to the man that is watching me type this BLOG nude... David Portal... his genius with graphics and design made the frustration of this project bearable... the abstract words and scribble drawings I gave him manifested into this inspiring online dream of mine. The few creative differences and tense situations at home/work the last couple months have been well worth the satisfying evening we had when we did our final read-through and "celebrated" dirtier than most editorial staffs do...in bed.